Sunday, September 18, 2005
statement : i'm a confused obsessive nut...why: yesterday when i was at crystal's house, i msged chul min to call me after work so we can arrange a time to meet...he did call, we toked and after we hung up, i got upset..i threw the phone on crystal's bed and went 2 the bathroom and sat on the toilet bowl sulking...crystal was like: " what happened??".....i said: " he changed"...(as in his tone of voice) ..usually, when he calls me he'll tok really nicely and kinda "sweet" but yesterday, it was just a short and cold conversation...crystal said, maybe he's tired...then i was like, " well, he doesn't sound like THAT when he calls me after work at 12am at nite....(it was only 3 pm)~~!! and when we met, we juz said hi and he pulled on my bag and said, "hey, is this new? " i juz pulled away roughly and shook my head and went up the bus...and throughout the whole meeting, we didn't tok at all...i juz toked to hyunggen...sighs...and today i msged him to tell him that he didn't have to help me check my work schedule..he didn't call back...and i was expecting him to do so...coz he never fails..and i mean NEVER fails to call me back after i msg him even though if there's not a need to reply, but he'll juz call...u noe what i mean? ..so anyway..he didn't call back..i was in northbridge with my dad and i was quite rude to him coz i was so upset..i even tested my phone to see whether it was working or not~~~it was just a few minutes ago then he called me back and he tone was not as nice but still ok, and i was so happy i came flying out of my room, my auntie tot i was a looney~~anyway, i would like to tell the story of why this situation came about..about why he's acting like that and i know why..it's what ram, crystal and elaine and i talked about...maybe next time...would somebody please just knock some sense into me?
~}A piece of winter
